originally written 26 Jan 14
posted 12 Nov 15
photo by: Shirley/STL/Jan 2014
A thought struck me today. 
I don't want to lose weight just because I'll look and feel better.
I don't want to lose weight for just my husband or my kids. 
I want to lose weight to bring glory and honor to God.
I don't think my current shape does that. 
I want to say that it doesn't matter but deep down I know it does...
because it reveals an area where I haven't fully surrendered to Him. 

Omigosh. I might have just discovered the key to
the shackles around my ankles that have been tying me down for way too long. 

I can't breathe now. Happy tears. 
Praying this year will be different!!

*Added thought 12 Nov 15:
I have to be honest, when I opened this one up today to prepare it for posting, my initial reaction was NOT to share it openly.  I was filled with shame at my naive words and that it took me so long to obey what I believed God told me to do years ago.  However, as I worked on it, and prayed for guidance on what to do, I knew I could not hide this one.  It's teaching me that even in my struggle, God knew my heart.  He knew how badly I wanted to obey.  He knew the reasons I kept failing.  He provided exactly what I needed and opened my eyes even further at a later date.  He is so very faithful.  He knows me.  He knows everything about me, even the stuff I hide from others out of fear of rejection.  
And He loves me anyway.  ;)

My sacrifice, O God, is a broken spirit; 
a broken and contrite heart you, God, will not despise.
Psalm 51:17

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