photo by: Shirley/Suffolk/Jan 2006
A heart that is numb...
orignally written and posted
24 Jan 2006
I find myself sitting here at the computer again...yearning to pour out my heart and struggling with the words that will not come.  My heart is numb from the pain it's carried from so many sources in recent days.

I know...and I trust...but I hurt...and my usual outlet does not seem to be working properly today.  However, I will continue to trust...and I will hold on until these trials pass and the sun shines again in my heart and in my eyes.

I am listening to a favored cd by "mercyme".  The title of the cd is "undone" and the song that is most appropriate to this day for me is "keep singing".  I am touched by the depth of sadness that has brought this song to be born.  I am thankful that these gentlemen were willing to share the words that formed from their own tough times...

Another rainy day
I can't recall having sunshine on my face
All I feel is pain
All I wanna do is walk out of this place
But when I am stuck, I can't move
When I don't know what I should do 
When I wonder if I'll ever make it through

But I gotta keep singing
I gotta keep praising Your name
You're the one that's keeping my heart beating
I gotta keep singing
I gotta keep praising Your name
That's the only way that I'll find healing

Can I climb up in Your lap
I don't wanna leave
Jesus sing over me
I gotta keep singing

Can I climb up in Your lap
I don't wanna leave
Jesus sing over me

Oh You're everything I need
And I gotta keep singing

~~Shirley (who once again finds herself tossed overboard...battered by the storms of life...clinging to the rope attached to the ever faithful Rescuer)
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